juvenalia for I shall never grow old

Femme fetal

I had a sister, once.

cast in half-light, the only light

a shadow of jacaranda blossoms in soggy grass.
when I look again, there is nothing purple.

oh, little star:

  how far will you
 careen from your warm cradle?

—and the gulls scream invisibly. The waves crash unseen.

I’m by the water, deck chairs lined up along
its edge.

My annual pilgramage has brought me here.

Sixteenth of August: twenty times I have
paused, pondered, passed. This year is much the same.

Feeble poet,

along the way, you have forgotten that
the earth is just as vast as the heavens.

Self as star

August 16: I imagine that I was born under the Perseids,
long hairs drawn from the heavens shining over my hospital nativity